Fade

Fade out
Honestly I wanna be
Just about anyone else right now
Anyone else right now
Fade out
Honestly I wanna be
Just about anyone else right now
Anyone else right now
Right now

Believe me when I say I read apologies a hundred times
Yours was no exception
And I wish I could've loved it like a brother
Cherry picked the merry bits and carried on
Sung the herald angel's song
Cherished it before it's gone

For so long I waited
For the stereotypical day to come
Where it gets clearer
And the mirror isn't breaking on the daily
Waited for the day that you would save me
And make me into somebody who isn't fucking crazy

But you couldn't and you didn't
And I know that's not the proper frame
Shit just hits real different
When you've risen from your mother's grave
Some would say that on a summer's day
You'll hear your mother's name
You'll still wonder if she suffers like you suffer daily

You still wonder if you ever did enough to help
Maybe you still wonder if you'll ever really love yourself
Maybe you still suffer with the burdens of a broken age
Maybe it's okay to let those moments fade

Fade out
Honestly I wanna be
Just about anyone else right now
Anyone else right now
Fade out
Honestly I wanna be
Just about anyone else right now
Anyone else right now

If knowing is half the battle
The battle ain't half over
I'm can't even act a soldier
I'm hacked open--coded in cold blood

Live in a bomb shelter I'm holed up
Body is origami--I fold up
Been a long while since I sobered up
Son of a Bitch Everything's Real
That's the acronym I used to be told of
And sho' nuff
Maybe I'm not ready to heal
I been patient but it's slow as fuck
I wanna be an inspiration
But in truth I'm really shaking
In my boots lately
Feels like I'm a slave to my abuse
Maybe it's no use changing
No matter what I do
My hue's monochromatic
I'm due for some saturation
I wanna put a smile on your face
A stride in your step
I wanna put the light in your eyes
A sigh in your breath
I wanna slow the rhythm of the rise of your chest
I wanna tell you everything will be alright in the end

Fade out (I want to)
Honestly I wanna be
Just about anyone else right now
Anyone else right now
Fade out
Honestly I wanna be
Just about anyone else right now
Anyone else right now
Right now