Overthinking

I'm overthinking it all
Put my doubts into a trash can
I'm sick of it all
You bring me down, I can't avoid that
I wish I could call you
I know you wouldn't like that
Heart on my sleeve
You hit me up, I hit you right back

I feel like I don't exist
It all disappears in smoke and mist
I don't like talking to real life people
Everyone's horny, broke and sick
And it gets me low
I'm trapped in a vice grip, let me go
But I know there are others that are feeling like this
So if you hear me then let me know
I float through life like a ghost
Can't say how I'm feeling, I just choke
Still have dreams of my dead best friend
When I wake up sweating my eyes are still soaked
I feel isolated
And sure, I guess it would be nice to make it
But really and truly I just want peace of mind
Coz every time I smile I fake it

I never used to be this person
Feel like I'm always needing a surgeon
Who I've been would hate who I am
But I know that I'll never reclaim that version
My anxieties floor me
Here, let me tell you my new life story
How many times when you're leaving the house
Do you check for your phone and your wallet and your doorkey?
How many times do you check the taps?
Turn off the oven, unplug the kettle
You lock the door and then lock it again
And then lock it again but you still can't settle
Halfway there you retrace the pavements
You know that it's gonna be fine, it's blatant
I think to myself if that didn't happen
Then maybe my mind wouldn't be in this status

I had all these hopes and plans
Will I ever be more than a broken man?
Trapped in my head I hate leaving my bed
Drown in the sea and that boat's on land
Still never smokin' a plant that's stinking
Beating my brain and I keep on lynching
The tears don't dry so I can't stop blinking
Overthinking, I can't stop sinking

I'm overthinking it all
Put my doubts into a trash can
I'm sick of it all
You bring me down, I can't avoid that
I wish I could call you
I know you wouldn't like that
Heart on my sleeve
You hit me up, I hit you right back

I'm overthinking it all
Put my doubts into a trash can
I'm sick of it all
You bring me down, I can't avoid that
I wish I could call you
I know you wouldn't like that
Heart on my sleeve
You hit me up, I hit you right back