Confessions

I took my time, I fought my brain
Worked hard and cried, still felt some pain
Devil said hi, God called my name
To hell and back, he rose again
She hurt me bad, filled me with rage
Despite the love, they act the same
I know that winners got a circle
But you can't reach it if you stay sane
I know you've seen me cry these tears
Yet I won't ever be ashamed
Cause I'm addicted to this triangle
Of Love, Happy, and Pain
A black man standing in America
With nothing left to gain
No I won't lose myself to the world
Otherwise I'll never be the same

Yall niggas want facts
No I ain't speaking no cap
Lemme write about my life in this rap
At 8 years old, Cassidy was loving on me
After Tyrese ain't want her back
At ten years old, started sinning about my age
Cause I didn't want to be so different
8 Years passed by
Hell was starting to thrive
Cause the lies kept on winning
I was sinning
Felt like it was the beginning
Devil had started grinning
I was preaching
Filmed those other kids, my camera was doing my teaching
Now I see it
Now I see it
Sometimes I feel like I can't do this, don't believe it

Destituted in my own universe
Living in the world while I'm in the hearse
Feel like I'm dead but I'm getting worse
No spells to break me from this hidden curse
That's the way that I've always timed it
Clock spinning but the world stays silent
I feel like I'm gonna start a riot
Stop lying on me cause all you niggas tried it
I can't escape nor can I breathe in this empty room
Where a noose hangs above my head as a clue
Should I kill myself or man should I really live for you?
Cause by the time you pick a decision it'll already be too soon
And I just keep on feeling like I am a renegade
Heard this life was too much to bargain on the life I made
I promise you I wouldn't do nothing for this I trade
Everything else, for nothing in power cause I gotta say

I took my time, I fought my brain
Worked hard and cried, still felt some pain
Devil said hi, God called my name
To hell and back, he rose again
She hurt me bad, filled me with rage
Despite the love, they act the same
I know that winners got a circle
But you can't reach it if you stay sane
I know you've seen me cry these tears
Yet I won't ever be ashamed
Cause I'm addicted to this triangle
Of Love, Happy, and Pain
A black man standing in America
With nothing left to gain
No I won't lose myself to the world
Otherwise I'll never be the same

I'll never be the same
I'll never be the same

These demons tryna control me
Devil on me
Devil on me
Ah
Ah I be wondering
How am I gonna stop suffering
I'm trying
I'm trying
I'm trying
I be tryna contemplate things
Tryna to erase things
Tryna change the history bothering me
I try to be
Suffocating the suffering
Suffocating the suffering
They call me Low Porosity
But my hair is dry
My phone is dry
And all I do is cry
And every single night
I don't see no light
And I'm tryna wonder if this fight is worth the fight

I took my time, I fought my brain
Worked hard and cried, still felt some pain
Devil said hi, God called my name
To hell and back, he rose again
She hurt me bad, filled me with rage
Despite the love, they act the same
I know that winners got a circle
But you can't reach it if you stay sane
I know you've seen me cry these tears
Yet I won't ever be ashamed
Cause I'm addicted to this triangle
Of Love, Happy, and Pain
A black man standing in America
With nothing left to gain
No I won't lose myself to the world
Otherwise I'll never be the same