Charade

I'm well aware of how to make the break
Never really fit in so I've always felt opaque
Seeking solace in the wounds I make
Though hidden, the struggles within me quake
Surrounded by love, yet I feel so alone

Haunted by the fear of being a charade
(Hiding behind a facade)
Every day I battle with my hate and doubt
Trapped within the past, but unable to stay
My mind starts to sway

I let myself decay as emotions turn to rust
My heart grows heavy and weighs me down
Thoughts replay, saying I'm not enough
Self-doubt holds me in its clutch

Uncertain if I'll be free of these shackles
This weight I've held onto for so damn long
Like ripping stitches from scars self-inflicted
I'm bleeding out and I can't carry on

I can't carry on
I can't carry on
Haunted by fear, I'm trapped in my past
Terrified that every moment could be my last
And as I start to stumble
My conscience slowly crumbles