Give It All Up

I likely spent a decade in bed
A few more of those in my head
Trying to master life's lessons
Yet I still have some questions

Intellect can't erase depression
Logistics can't help regression
To thoughts of times I tripped
Are there lessons I missed?

I'm just about ready to give it all up
Scream to the sky 'enough's enough'
Hold onto trauma I haven't resolved
Hope said trauma somehow dissolve

I count my breath as I mindfully sit
Wonder how you'd feel if this was it
At least you had what was left of me
A form you gave the utmost flattery

Perception can't aid anxiety
Deception can't breed notoriety
'Cause falsehoods and blatant lies
Don't deserve a goddamn prize

I'm just about ready to give it all up
Scream to the sky 'enough's enough'
It's clear to you and everyone else
These burdens and I still need some help

"I think it's you who needs some help"
Words you said
That I heard
And I fuckin' felt
'Cause those words may be few
But fuck, they must now ring true

I'm ready to give it all up