Текст и перевод песни HA:TFELT feat. punchnello - Read Me

Read Me

펼쳐 보여주고 싶어
꼭꼭 접어 숨겨놓은 마음이
자꾸 튀어나오려고 해
왜 이렇게 바보가 되는 거야 니 앞에 서면

그게 아니라 그러니까 좋아해
그게 다야 그렇지만
나란 앤 보기보다 복잡해서
읽어주면 좋을 텐데

모든 페이지를 다 펼쳐서
감춰 놓았던 상자를 열어서
여섯 살 동생이 태어나던 때와
열두 살 분노를 처음 배운 때와
열다섯 남겨졌다는 두려움과
그리고 열여덟 가슴 벅찼던 꿈
넌 무슨 얘길 할까?

잠들지 마 (아, 아, 아)
읽어줘 (낯설다고 생각할까)
고갤 돌리지 마 (아, 아, 아)
나를 봐줘 (불쌍하게 보려나)

너에게 건네는 한 마디가
수백 가지 말 중에 고르고 골라서
수만가지 맘들이 얽히고설켜
그나마 가장 그럴듯한 하나란 걸 알까

넌 열어보려고도 하지 않잖아 (나라는 책)
들여다보려고도 하지 않잖아 (나라는 책)
표지만 힐끗 볼 뿐이잖아
읽어주면 좋을 텐데

모든 페이지를 다 펼쳐서
감춰 놓았던 상자를 열어서
여섯 살 울고 있던 어린 엄마
열두 살 매일 뭔가 부서지던 집
열다섯 괜히 미웠던 아저씨
그리고 열여덟 멀게만 느껴졌던 꿈
넌 무슨 얘길 할까?

너는 날 아직 몰라, 괜찮아 당연한 거니까
Ooh, yeah, 부담은 갖지 마 싫다면 닫아도 돼 니 맘 알아
Ooh, yeah, 읽어내리기 시작하면 끝이 없겠지만 단 하나
네가 알아줬으면 하는 건 너를 만나고 내 펜이 살아난 거야
Ooh, yeah, 여전히 어지럽지, 먼지가 수북하네
오랜만에 열어보는 책 안에는 상처가 쌓여있네
나는 늘 변했는데 너와 내 생각이 우리가 된대도
발자국은 지워지질 않아서 잉크가 번진 채로 남아있지

엄마가 많이 아팠던 고등학교 시절에
난 할 수 있는 게 없어서 그냥 방한 켠에 나를 가두고 지냈어
맘을 준 이를 버리고 술과 담배로만 몸을 채워서
그렇게 시간은 나를 빨리 감아댔고 결말인 줄 알았던
그해 겨울 널 만났고 이 자리야 난 그래 아무 의미 없다고
느낄지도 몰라 넌 내게 새 장을 쓸 용기를 준 건데
무언들 어쩔까? 다시 한번 적어보는 거지, oh yeah

모든 페이지를 다 펼쳐서
감춰 놓았던 상자를 열어서
여섯 살 동생이 태어나던 때와
열두 살 분노를 처음 배운 때와
열다섯 남겨졌다는 두려움과
그리고 열여덟 가슴 벅찼던 꿈
넌 무슨 얘길 할까?

잠들지 마
읽어줘 (낯설다고 생각할까)
고갤 돌리지 마
나를 봐줘

Read Me

I want to unfold and show you
The heart that I've kept tightly folded and hidden
It keeps trying to pop out
Why do I become such a fool when I'm in front of you?

It's not that, I just like you
That's all, but
I'm more complicated than I look
It would be nice if you would read me

Unfold all the pages
Open the box that I've been hiding
When my six-year-old sister was born
When I first learned anger at twelve
The fear of being left alone at fifteen
And my heart-pounding dreams at eighteen
What story will you tell?

Don't fall asleep (ah, ah, ah)
Read to me (will you think I'm strange?)
Don't turn your head (ah, ah, ah)
Look at me (will you pity me?)

The one word I give to you
Is chosen out of hundreds of words
Tens of thousands of thoughts are tangled and intertwined
Do you know that it's the one that seems the most plausible?

You don't even try to open me (the book called me)
You don't even try to look inside me (the book called me)
You only glance at the cover
It would be nice if you would read me

Unfold all the pages
Open the box that I've been hiding
A young mother who was crying at six
A house where something broke every day at twelve
An uncle I hated for no reason at fifteen
And a dream that felt so far away at eighteen
What story will you tell?

You don't know me yet, it's okay, it's natural
Ooh, yeah, don't worry, you can close it if you don't like it, I understand
Ooh, yeah, if you start reading, it will never end, but just one thing
What I want you to know is that my pen came to life after I met you
Ooh, yeah, it's still messy, it's dusty
There are scars in the book that I opened for the first time in a long time
I've always changed, but even though you and my thoughts have become us
The footprints don't fade away, so they remain smudged with ink

When my mother was very sick in high school
I couldn't do anything, so I just locked myself in the corner of my room and spent my time there
I abandoned the one who gave me my heart and filled my body with alcohol and cigarettes
That's how time quickly swept me away, and I thought it was the end
That winter, I met you, and this place, I mean, it doesn't mean anything to me
You might feel it too, you might not think it's meaningful, but you gave me the courage to write a new chapter
What can I do? I'll just try writing it again, oh yeah

Unfold all the pages
Open the box that I've been hiding
When my six-year-old sister was born
When I first learned anger at twelve
The fear of being left alone at fifteen
And my heart-pounding dreams at eighteen
What story will you tell?

Don't fall asleep
Read to me (will you think I'm strange?)
Don't turn your head
Look at me