Текст песни Meet My Demons - J-Easy

We all got our demons
But mine are the meanest
They won't let me get to close
To the ones I need the most
They're angry and violent
They sure uninviting
So you better run away
For my demons come to play

I fought these demons long enough
Everything you seen before that was just a bluff
Didn't have the best childhood sucked growing up
Grew up rough
Been through the sad days that made me tough
Feels like my mind has on cuffs when I write but
If I put the pen to the pad
What will this person think
If I say this will they judge me or jus bounce maybe I seem to never get it right
I can't find the missing link
Causes me to overthink
I'm on the brink
Taking off to the kitchen sink
Throwing up everywhere can't even think
Going over the edge
But I took a plea to my daughter to never try again to take my own head
Feeling like killing these rappers but I'm thinking of pickin a lyrical killing
Instead of Hearing that trigger clicking
Never been the type to really want that living
Thinking that it's simply forgiven
I apologize but that's how I was driven
Rotten to the core
You ready for war
Time to click back clap back and attack

We all got our demons
But mine are the meanest
They won't let me get to close
To the ones I need the most
They're angry and violent
They sure uninviting
So you better run away
For my demons come to play

I'm trying to write this song
My mind fucks up and it feels like this is all wrong
Most people don't seem to believe that
You try so hard but dont have the ability
And all you have is your own insecurities
With the memories it's tough
You sit in your own misery cause the shit is rough
Easily you could tell that those were lies
But they can see the truth through your eyes
And the way I'm feeling right now
Is something that shouldn't be allowed
Getting so angry I start to scream and shout
Never been the type to run my mouth
I don't feel as though I'm good enough
But for my daughter I gotta be tough
Trying to hold back these tears my eyes just puff up
And no one ever told me life would be this hard
Just put a bullet in my head and send me to the graveyard
Ill send all of my family a postcard
My heart shattered in pieces like it's being ripped apart
But my little girl saves when it's dark
She's my little sweetheart

We all got our demons
But mine are the meanest
They won't let me get to close
To the ones I need the most
They're angry and violent
They sure uninviting
So you better run away
For my demons come to play

My demons are angry and violent
So don't get pissed when you get me out of my environment
When my day comes I'll be waiting at the gates
Staring god in his face on that day
Don't really know what he will say
I'll confess my sins and pray
They all say it's my switch in my brain
Thats the shit really does drain me
I haven't found the chain and key
Guess someone hid it from me
All I want to do is open it
Shit wish this stress would just vanish from me

And I feel like I'm on gods hit list
Must of missed something so god has different plans
So now all I can do is make my music and enjoy my fans
Here are my demons