Real As Ever

I get so cold
I put my hand over the flame
To get control
At least of the cause of my pain
I don't talk anymore
'Cause I'm afraid I'll sound insane
I've been here before
Grip my chest with shaky hands
Swear I felt my heart stop
Doctor upped the milligrams
Guess it must've worn off
I know it's all in my head
But it's as real as ever
I practice holding my breath
Until I'm feeling better
I'm overthinking
Over symptoms
Wishing this would pass
I know it's all in my head
But it's as real as
Ever
Real as
Searching on the internet
Can't believe I'm here again
Looking for the antidote
Never seem to real it in
If I'm ever me again
It'll be a miracle
Grip my chest with shaky hands
Swear I felt my heart stop
Doctor upped the milligrams
Guess it must've worn off
I know it's all in my head
But it's as real as ever
I practice holding my breath
Until I'm feeling better
I'm overthinking
Over symptoms
Wishing this would pass
I know it's all in my head
But it's as real as
Ever
Real as
Ever
Real As
Walking in a dream
It's more like a nightmare
When I fall asleep
I swear the monster's right there
It's all too much for me
I just need some fresh air
It's so hard to breathe
It's so hard to breathe
I know it's all in my head
But it's as real as ever
I practice holding my breath
Until I'm feeling better
I'm overthinking
Over symptoms
Wishing this would pass
I know it's all in my head
But it's as real as