Anx

This anxiety keeps eyeing me
Like baby quit trying me
I'm fast asleep
Or at least I'm trying to be
While my mental state in quarantine
Please keep that ugly bitch away from me
Got me blue like some methylamine
And the amount of stress in these bones
Really help keep me on my fucken toes
But it's the same stress that won't
Let off on my fucken throat
These chains draggin' me off the boat
Water overfilled in my lungs
But I ain't choking nun'
I let myself down
I let myself drown
Waitin' on that air to run out
Waitin' for my death, yet to be announced
I'll probably end up jinxing it like everythin' else
And let's see you probably want the best for me
But I don't want the best for me
See, what I want involves blasphemy
And I don't think you'd stay intact for me
You'd break into pieces if I ask you to attack for me

And I couldn't see it clearer while I'm starin' at the mirror
I'm at war with myself
Myself being someone else entirely
And honestly
I'm kinda getting sick and tired of fighting me
He closes my eyes when I'm tryna see
And I couldn't see it clearer while I'm starin' at the mirror
I'm at war with myself
Myself being someone else entirely
And honestly
I'm kinda getting sick and tired of fightin' me
He closes my eyes when I'm tryna see

Walking late night right, moon by side
I fantasize about traveling space and time
Hoping that a vicious soul happens to stroll by
With violent intent and evil on their mind
Their nine aimed cocked straight, right at my light
Pockets always empty, so ill offer up my life
If I die by another hand it's better than if it was mine, right
Or at least I tell myself

How many lies till we get to the truth
I've been getting high ain't nothin' nothin' new
Confessing to a mic in my make-shift booth
I be cutting ties, give a fuck about a crew
How many lies till we get to the truth
I've been getting high ain't nothin' nothin' new
Confessing to a mic in my make-shift booth
I be cutting ties, give a fuck about a crew

And I couldn't see it clearer while I'm starin' at the mirror
I'm at war with myself
Myself being someone else entirely, and honestly
I'm kinda getting sick and tired of fightin' me
He opens my eyes when I'm tryna sleep