Текст песни Different - Jvdah

I was living too close to the grave
Amount of vices that I had was too close to my age
And the cover they judged me by was too close to my page
Way too close to my pain
Way too close to explain

Look
Still I must confide
Tried to hide
Almost died inside of labia
I bet that sound crazy uh
I gotta be honest bout my life and my behavior
Call out what He saved me from
Fell in lust with sugar
And that cake you couldn't take me from
I would always get that heavy beat inside my atrium
Every time my iris got excited by my area
Sacrificed my flesh unto the devil
And he ate me up
What Elohim saved me from
Look
I was back inside the party
With my weed in my bag
I'd roll up pain and insecurity
And breathe in my past
Exhale the trauma and the drama
Tried to leave it like that
Tried to get off my train of thought
But it'd come steaming right back
I tried to find a little shawty with a body
Thinking maybe she could solve me
But I always ended up saying I'm sorry
What Bacardi couldn't fluidly fix
I had to lucidly ditch
I got with Lucy
Grabbed the goosey
And dipped
I had to flee
Know my conscience wasn't green
But my flesh it intervened
Made decision and I leaned wit it, rocked wit it
Fiends
Never found me on my knees
For the reason I should be
Was so high I couldn't
Had to talk wit Him
Please let me down
I'm a dog
Could You please let me out
I am lost
Could You please help me now
Could You please help me

He said I gotta be something different
He said I gotta be something different
Gotta be
Different
Said I gotta be
He said I gotta be something different
He said I gotta be something different
Gotta be
Different
Gotta be
Different

He said I had to change
It was strange at first
I noticed difference in my words
In my slang at first
And then I learned power of speech
And how language hurts
A couple people that I killed
In my layman's terms
Was livin' dangerous
Over Sinplification
Never thought it was deep
Never would complicate it
Never thought it was me
Community mixed with union
Communion is where we meet
But I was focused on bread
I never saw it as we
I'd never watch what I eat
I'd never protect my plate
And the plaintiff would see me feast
And then I would be accused
Of the food that I would consume
Under bloody moons in my tomb
In my room
When I had the meal I chose to swoon to my doom that day
It's all consumption
Really it's all for nothing
Really it's all for glory
For vanity
And for frontin
Really I thought they wouldn't abandon me if I'm stuntin'
Really it's all just runnin'
Look
I had to face the facts
I had to dive into myself
I had to take it back
And find the reasons why my coronary made of wax
I had to figure out the mold that I was made of back
When I was made in tact
I got my favor back
I got that fire on my tongues
That was some major acts
He wrote my verses in His stripes
Now that's a paper back
I had to pay Him back
I had to

He said I gotta be something different
He said I gotta be something different
Gotta be
Different
Said I gotta be
He said I gotta be something different
He said I gotta be something different
Gotta be
Different
Gotta be