Текст и перевод песни KOTOKO - effacer

effacer

いつもより遅く起きた朝は
晴れていませんようにと祈るの
「また来るね」と置いて行った時計だけが
時を刻む
君にちょっと不満で
会いたくないよって言った
あの日のたった一言が
二人のログ 最後の言葉になるなんて
一人きり待った雨の土曜日
冷たい鍵盤 見つめたまま
窓を叩く透明な音符
後悔も想い出も消して
サヨナラを弾くような雨
届かないとなおさらに焦がれ
その刺が痛いことも忘れた
時に君が伏し目がちでいるのも
気がつかずにいた
駆け回るゴシップ 他人事と流した
ただ君に愛された
そんな日々の裏側さえ 見ないふりした
一人 待ち合わせした公園
少し錆びたブランコ 泣いてた
ねえ 君は今 笑っていますか？
答えもなく頬に落ちた
長い後悔のような空
それぞれがきっと 傷つけぬように繰り返す小さな嘘
雨音はそっとスタッカート重ね隠してゆく
君がずっと言わない一言が欲しくて
連絡もしないまま
置き忘れて閉じた傘を開けずにいた
一人きり待った雨の土曜日
冷たい鍵盤にそっと触れた
頬を伝う透明な音符
後悔も想いも映して
サヨナラって見上げた空

effacer

Waking up later than usual this morning,
I prayed that it wouldn't be sunny.
The only thing marking time was the clock you left with,
Saying, "I'll come back some day."
I was a little frustrated with you,
And I said that I didn't want to see you.
In that moment, those words would become
The last words of our chat logs.
I waited alone through the rainy Saturday,
Staring at the cold keyboard.
Clear notes tapped at the windows,
Erasing every regret, every memory.
The rain played like a farewell song.
As I felt the pain of its sting,
I forgot how much I missed you.
And at times, when you looked down,
I didn't notice.
I read the gossip about you and others,
But I was just loved by you.
I turned a blind eye to your struggles.
Alone, we met at the park,
And I cried on the rusty swing set.
Honey, are you laughing now?
Tears fell onto my cheek without an answer.
The sky was vast and unforgiving.
We both repeated small lies to avoid hurting each other.
The rain hid the staccato of our words.
I wanted to hear a word you would never say,
But I never contacted you.
I opened the umbrella you left behind.
I waited alone through the rainy Saturday,
And gently touched the cold keyboard.
Clear notes fell down my face,
Reflecting my regrets and thoughts.
I looked up at the sky, saying goodbye.