I feel evil

I don't get time to talk to y'all like that, so I'm finna speak this one from the heart
Ayy, they say it's now or never, I'm tryna give you all my got, know you ain't been feelin' special
Say I'm workin' on the grind, deep down I ain't been helpful
Told me I need to be your peace, but I been bein' stressful

C'mon, and I been bein' lustful
I go to sleep and dream about death, no, I can't move a muscle
And know we gettin' too old to fight, I pray to God, no tussle
I just wanna ball on my old life, boy, D'Angelo Russell

Ain't it a shame? I'm on the road and I still think about you
And all them nights that I had cried, think I couldn't breathe without you
But I bring it all on myself when I stay in this sin
But it's gon' keep goin' if I don't bring this cycle to an end

Yeah, how would my mama feel if I kill myself
How would my daddy feel if he woke up, found I drilled myself
Think I won't even make it past 18, boy, I couldn't feel myself
But I been prayin' to God, he told me about my spirit, health

I done played the game the worst ways
I done did so much dirty and so much slimy things
I shoulda been thinkin' about our future, I went and copped a chain
I went and copped a ring

But I went and tried to hide it all by sayin' that Jesus saves
Yeah
I'm tryna lead others while everyday, boy, I'm still stuck in pain
C'mon. Yeah

Tryna be a man of God inside the world, boy, I should be ashamed
Yeah
I don't even try to feel that pain no more, bro it just feel the same
Man, I feel evil

Yeah
Some days, boy, I feel evil
I just feel evil
Man

Lord, take these problems I feel evil
C'mon
Lord, take these problems I feel evil
Evil