Текст песни Hell (An Invocation) - Kerrie Joy

I got family members that told me they rather me dead
So I spiral on this mic about bitches that left me unread
About the shit that almost killed me, welcome to inside my head
I had to fill it with promise so I didn't fill it with lead

This is where I dream to be free
This is where I dream to love me
This is just where that spiritual warfare be

Battle insecurities I learned from broken niggas that preached
Bout god and purity while they preyed on the meek
While they stole from the poor and I had to work three jobs for heat
How I gave them my all because they said God, would bless me
Fooled me my whole life because I chose to believe
Willing to give my soul for this blood-stained creed

I accept I was played
Now I have all this rage
Trying not to hate who I am outside of just being saved
Now I can't trust myself
Don't believe what I say
I'm tryna bet on me but what am I worth today

I guess I'm too hard to love
I guess my truth ain't enough
I guess I gotta lose myself for the big white man above
Fuck it all, I'm just a hypocrite, been tryna own up
Fuck it all, hated myself so long, I'm tired, are we done
My ex called me a liar, bitch it takes one to know one
Had to make up that shit for survival, you think I did that for fun

Now I pimp pain for profit
Don't really know how to stop it
They call me brave but the child inside is still afraid, let's be honest
Got bills to pay through these tears, y'all pay me just to watch it
Ladies swear they're in love until they see me break down in private

We can't handle the truth
We got too much to lose
Our sanity, family, hope so we rather choose
To agree the bullshit is real and that we're just passing through
That heaven is our goal but what if heaven's in you
What if you are a god and what if Jesus was too
What if he just knew who he was so he started a coup
Hoping that we'd come through
Greater works shall we do
But if anyone suffers
A hell is all we produce