Текст песни Paranoia - Kid Juli

Life ain't easy sober
I've been in and out of focus
I just need another dosage
Just to reignite my motives
I've been drowning in emotions 'cause my mind filled with explosives
Yeah, yeah, yeahhhhh

I've been drinking out that bottle, got that smoke in my lungs
Had a change of fate so I experiment with them drugs, yeah

I've been going through paranoia
Thinking about everything, down to my morals
Had to realize that I'm not immortal
Too many schemes to get to that portal

I've been drinking out that bottle, got that smoke in my lungs
Then I conversate with Cid; I'm just tryna see what's up

Been socially distant, way before the virus
But I'm stuck in the crib and my life is a crisis
Lost in my head, over-stressing
Thinking 'bout everything, but my blessings
Couldn't second guess it, too much depression
And too much obsession of making it out
I'm my biggest hater, all I do is doubt
My eyes in your face but my mind in the clouds

Don't like the crowds but I love me a mosh pit
Soaring, exploring, and searching for purpose
Remember the days we would go to the circus
Every Thanksgiving, man, life felt so perfect
Then life hit the switch
Making me twitch
Think I went crazy
In the end, will it be all worth it?

I can't trust a soul, so I dance with the devil
Can't count how many times they done told me be careful
'Cause too many times in my life I've done gambled
And too many times I restarted the mission
If I ran back the clock, man, this shit will be different
Just me and mama just talking out feelings
And maybe a daddy that plays the position
A kid can just dream, but I know the reality
Clock always ticking even after I'm skeletal
So in the meantime, I'm just raising the pedestal
Fly out to Cali to get that exotic pack
Couple more times and I might not be coming back

Take my shawty Topanga
Really wants me to claim her
But I'm paranoid so I told her

I got, I got
I got trust issues
Can't put faith in you
Trust issues
Can't put faith in you

If you just gonna hurt me
Rather you desert me
Please don't test my gangsta
I might just front-page ya

I've been drinking out that bottle
Got that smoke in my lungs
Then I conversate with Cid
I'm just tryna see what's up

Ooooooohhhhhh