Текст песни Self Aware - King Dave

I ain't finna cry no more tears forreal
With all these things that's said, it's just said and done
I know that the enemy want to see me just down by one
I know niggas really wanna see me losing by a ton
I just lost a loved one I ain't about to lose by a fucking tongue
Yeah

And I'm just tryna be honest
I ain't tryna be hyperbolic, I'm tryna be conscious
I know that I'ma make mistakes but I'ma still stay solid
A lot of niggas can't say the same cause they never was 'bout it
I done made room
And laid place mats for niggas to eat with me
The things that I just did out of love thought they was using me
Put them just all in position, this shit a unity
At least I thought it was but I ain't finna let them ruin me
With all these thoughts of death that's just been sitting all on my consciousness
Thoughts been racing back and forth but I ain't finna act on shit
Others been leaning on me lately just like a activist
Can't lean up on myself when I'm the one I need I'm lacking, shit
And I know I need the music
Don't know who I'ma influence but I know that I'ma use it
Ones that kissed on my face, traded like they was Judas
Maximizing my pain, pissed off, tryna act cooler
And I know that they been hurting they really just tryna mask it
The ones that said they hate me, they'll love me inside my casket
And I ain't speaking up death, cause that shit is ass backwards
I'm just tryna give you a glimpse, of what this life shit captures
And I'll never forget, how they made me feel
When I was stuck up in the field, when they done left me on my own
And I know this shit is real
Niggas texting on my phone, tryna act like we just chill
When they know they did some shit that'll damn near get 'em killed, Yes lord
And I'm just tryna stay in likeness, tryna be just like lightning
Things that was said to me, still out here just fighting
Battling through the music
I'm really writing, reciting, I'm battling like a titan, Yes lord
I still drop this shit and they ain't catch the hint
Nights when I would thought I would die
But I ain't never went, therapeutic with the music never need a therapist
Bought all of these knives to protect me just to go slit my wrist
Thought about it, never really wanna go and talk about it
I done made these moves make mistakes, but I ain't walk around it
I been feeling all of this pressure but I'm a fucking diamond
Hoping that the things that I'm doing would go and change the climate
They treated me like a hand me down, hoping that they hear me now
Even if I drop this shit they'll still go and tear me down
Praying over my thoughts every time that I go and lay me down
For every night I was hurting and I made It through I'll stay around