Square One

I was kinda hoping I'd recover
But I guess the root of healing takes longer
I thought I'd find hope from a lover
But you can never ask for peace from another

Need to get lost to find yourself
Need to ask questions to get help
Need to be broken to get well
But getting there is hell
And

Back to square one
Right when I thought that it was done
I fell back to feeling alone
My minds slipping out of control
And there's no easy fix to growing
No magic switch to knowing
I'll see one day
It'll be okay

I'm still trying, patient to recover
The therapies and remedies give color
I wouldn't be here without my mother
Midnight conversations closing in on closure

Need to get lost to find yourself
Need to stay strong when overwhelmed
Even when it's so hard to tell
Someone that you need help
And

Back to square one
Right when I thought that it was done
I fell back to feeling alone
My minds slipping out of control
And there's no easy fix to growing
No magic switch to knowing
I'll see one day
It'll be okay

Two months
Off of antidepressants
My hearts
Going all through the lessons
Why can't
I just feel normal

And I'm
Back to square one
Right when I thought that it was done
I fell back to feeling alone
My minds slipping out of control
And there's no easy fix to growing
No magic switch to knowing
I'll see one day
It'll be okay
It'll be okay
It'll be okay