Close the Curtain

How many times have you made me smile
As many times as I slept around
How many times have I made you proud
As many times as you let me down

How much pain can the heart take
Every smile come with heartbreak
Broke yours so many times it's not even heart shaped
More like a circle
Jumping all of these hurdles
Family matters but not every Laura needs an urkel
This is urgent I wasn't perfect
My heart was hurting I'm observant
I wanted to love you but wasn't certain
If you were riding my wave
Or if you were out here surfing
People are fucking snakes the biggest serpents
Close the curtains
Show is over as you hope for closure Life is push and pull
I push you away and you pull me closer
I never understood that shit I do you wrong
You stick around but if I do you right then you're moving on
I guess some things are too good to be true
I guess it's not so good to be you
I wonder how it feels to be you
This shit right here bigger than you and I
Whole generation that's full of lies and deceit
Y'all give them another chance that's another chance they will cheat
So to all the people I hope you listen to me
Love is a beautiful thing but it can make you weak
To the point that y'all accept a lot of things y'all should reject
Y'all give to much attention to the things y'all should neglect
Love yourself that is something that y'all should perfect
And you can not have my heart
If I can't have your respect
Out the gate I'm just straight telling y'all the good and bad
If he can't be a man then how can he be a dad
And fellas you must check her if she stepping out of line
Because if she can't deliver how can she be a mom
Gotta make it make sense
Look one we done to each other
All my sisters and brothers why can't we love one another
And get back to that love that our grandparents had
Cause we know this puppy love would make our grandparents laugh
Hope this isn't traumatic
I'm just being transparent
Please don't cheat through your marriage
Please just go be a parent
This dirty laundry I'm airing
Hope that you aren't embarrassed
One day we're all gonna perish
So I hope y'all start caring
About the present and the future cause the past already passed
Not to put y'all out on blast
But you knew what you did
So Love your boyfriend love your girlfriend
Love your husband love your wife
And don't forget to love yourself as much as you love your kids

How many times have you made me smile
As many times as I slept around
How many times have I made you proud
As many times as you let me down