Tired Since 1994

Trouble
All around me
I have them behind
On my left, on my right
That's all I can see

I can't take it
One way or the another
How could I think
I could be something else?
I'm a fading flower

I've been tired, since 1994
Tried out at war
I can't remember
How it feels to be bored

I'm still dancing
With pressure and fear
And made from myself
There's nothing I wish
But to disappear

I'm trying to fade away
I'm too young to fade away
Why just can't fade away?
But I can't
But I can't