Текст песни Dear Mom - Mac X3R0

Why are you wasting your time one this Mike
She had 20 years to be there for us
She was never there
20 years

Dear Mom
Remember when you stabbed that man, left me traumatized
When my heart grew cold and my hair turned white
When I cut my wrist thinkin bout suicide
When I prayed for God just to end my life
When I found friends, when I lost those fights
When I curled up tight on those lonely nights
When It was just me and him up inside my mind
Then you gave up on me and you never tried
They said I was nothing, I lived in the rain
Noone ever came, fell in love with the pain
Accepted this life cuz some things never change
But if I had that chance Id do it again
Only regret was not pickin the pen
And then writing the things I was scared to admit
Spent too much time tryna forget
When I shoulda spent time tryna forgive
Yeah, forgive your mistakes
Forgive the misdeeds and your arrogant ways
You ripped that smile right off of my face
Created these demons, put me in a cage
I had to bury my anger and rage
Else I woulda been consumed by hate
And bleed on people every day
But I don't wanna hate you I guess what I'm sayin is

I just want you to know that I love you
I just need you to know that I need you
I just wrote this to tell you one more thing, yeah
I just want you to know that I love you
I just need you to know that I need you
I just wrote this to tell you one more thing, yeah

Dear Mom, I'm 16 now
And I can't help but wonder why your not around
It's sad that all of our good times together
Is all of the times that I can't remember
But I'm not mad, dont get it twisted
I'm just upset that we never existed
When I say I love you just know it's forever
But why did you promise that you would get better
That never happened you were never there
I can't help thinking that you never cared
Do you know what it' like to be living in fear
Constantly thinkin that they'll disappear
It sucks, the thoughts in my head are often too much
And I can't keep a girl cuz I don't understand love
I've lost all emotions I miss who I was
I'm in an ocean, all I feel is numb
So I take to the blade, rupture the veins
If I don't feel any pain, I don't feel anything
To hell with this numbness
I hate taking pills just so I can feel somethin
Can't do it no more, I'm tired of runnin
I'm on the floor and I know that they love it
It's okay, I know the truths ugly
But I gotta know, did you even want me
And if you did
Why'd you go away
I don't want you to leave
I just want you to stay
I don't think that you know
How many times that I've prayed
That you'd quit with the drugs, that you'd be okay
That you would be safe, but its always the same

I just want you to know that I love you
I just need you to know that I need you
I just wrote this to tell you one more thing, yeah
I just want you to know that I love you
I just need you to know that I need you
I just wrote this to tell you one more thing, yeah

Dear Mom, hope you're doin okay
Didn't write this song just to throw in your face
Didn't write this song to put you into shame
Only wrote this song to give you the strength
To show everyone that its never too late
To start lookin at life in a different way
To see the beauty in all of the pain
To start makin it right, to start makin a change
Take a look at what you do to yourself
Know that you don't gotta do it yourself
Sometimes you just gotta ask for some help
Never be ashamed to feel how you felt
Make up your mind don't let nobody else
Tell you who to be, to put you in a cell
I can come to you, I can give you the key
But its all up to you if you wanna be free
Yeah, if you wanna be free
Yeah, I can give you the key

And I know you've done a lot of wrong in the past
But I refuse to remember you like that
Remember you like that