U Played Yourself

So, I always play myself
I just can't seem to ask for help
You know, I mean, I felt
I don't take these things too
Well, well, well, well
Ain't been a bad, bad, bad year
Nothing like last, last, last year
Still, I can't catch my breath here

Know you ain't seen me in a while
No, I been out the way tryna find my smile
Still tryna fill these lines with letters
And get myself together
And tryna be a better person
Cause the end be lurking
When the wind blow, it hit real low
Tryna find my place to glisten
Stopped searching for attention
I ain't even looking for a mention
I'm just tryna use everything I got
For it's missing

So, I always play myself
I just can't seem to ask for help
You know, I mean, I felt
I don't take these things too
Well, well, well, well
Ain't been a bad, bad, bad year
Nothing like last, last, last year
Still, I can't catch my breath here

I stopped doing devotionals a while ago
It's been really eating me up inside, I know
Mind been moving fast while I keep on riding slow
Recovery from the highs and lows
I hold myself sometimes
I can't even find the words to realize
I can't even write the words or find the nouns
I'm holding up while breaking down
It's aching, can't fake it

I know you know me well
I don't even think you know yourself
You can't even speak up for yourself
So, how you gonna act like you been well
For real
Know you know me well
I don't even think I know myself
I can't even speak up for myself
So, how I'm gonna get my peace to heal
For real

So, I always play myself
I just can't seem to ask for help
You know, I mean, felt
I don't take these things too
Well, well, well, well
Ain't been a bad, bad, bad year
Nothing like last, last, last year
Still, I can't catch my breath here

So, I always play myself
I just can't seem to ask for help
You know, I mean, I felt
I don't take these things too well