Set the Clock Down

I know I need to set the clock down but it stays up
On my sleeve where my hearts supposed to be
And in this land of broken promises I stay stuck
Between my expectations and reality

This place like limbo
Treading water
It seemed so simple
When I was younger
I laid my roses at the altar
And I hold on to this clock like
It's my daughter

If I could set the clock down I'd be free
Leave my past out in the meadow for the foxes
My future's just as heavy as my past
'Cause I have so many dreams I've put in boxes

But times not linear it seems
I'm always spiraling

And washing my face is like a prayer
Crying water please take what I don't need
And return it to the sea, return it to the sea

I'm crashing in the moment like a wave
Wave
Caffeine can't touch this level of fatigue
Fatigue
My heart it needs a shot of something straight up
Up
Maybe if it's strong enough I'll wake up
Up

I have so many journals filled with smoke
I wove my past in poetry inside them
And some days seem like everything's a joke
I hope someday my children will unwind them
And pull out every thread that wrapped my throat
Set their spirits free of everything behind them

If I could set the clock down I'd be free
A tether to a part of me I need

If I could be a song somebody'd sing
I guess I'd love to share my everything
If really every part of me was true
I wouldn't try to prove myself to you
If I could have a kiss and just believe
That it was new and nothing would repeat
I guess I'd be free
I guess I'd be free
I guess I'd be free
I guess I'd be free
I guess I'd be free
I guess I'd be free
If I could set the clock down I'd be free
If I could set the clock down I'd be free
If I could set the clock down I'd be free
If I could set the clock down I'd be free