Reintroduction

Why do I feel like I need a reintroduction?
Nine years in the game
Build something from nothing
Talk like I'm struggling
Frustrated but loving it
Three pillars I'm crushing them
But balance always been tough for me
That's the life of an extremist
I thought I had it figured out
I thought I was a genius
Drunk off my ego
I wonder what I was trying to prove
Don't bother me no more now Imma do what Imma do
Hardest worker in the room I think I forgot who I am
More concerned with image falling deeper inside of my head
Fighting some addictions they gon' keep me the man that I been
Once I make the choice though matter of time 'til they dead
Matter of time 'til I'm him I'm running out of patience
Mad at myself if I even think about vacation
I'm mastering my craft man I'm trying to be dangerous
Nothing fires me up like this and nothing changes

Drop a band to tip a waiter that's the kind of shit I'm on
Tell my girl let's go to Paris that's the kind of shit I want
Make a couple big investments that's just called I drop a song
Mom don't want me talking about it
Love you Mom but I think you're wrong
Studio at 2 a.m. I feel like it's 2019
Haven't felt that fire man it's good to feel that self-belief
Song after song in a world of "hey look at me look at me"
How am I doing it differently? No one make music like me
One way or another man I just gotta taste it
Low-key but living good permanent vacation
Chip away keep tweaking
This take more than the weekend
It's heart soul & my spirit
I know the people can feel it
They feel it deep that it's real
I do it all with no gimmicks
I do it all with no team
I only trust my gut feelings
Worked hard didn't work smart
Told myself that's integrity
That's one thing I can't live without
But business ain't the enemy

I was trying to make a hit I was stuck and I was obsessed
I lost myself a little because I just wanted success
I know I wasn't being entirely all myself
I pride myself on keeping it real but I couldn't tell
I thought I was doing the shit I'm supposed to be doing
A character that I'm honing I gotta keep it all moving
I gotta be the cool guy
The rapper artist knew I
Wasn't really all that
So had to be a new guy
It wasn't working though my old shit did better
Back when I was a naive little kid shit felt better
The shit I make today I'm playing a different fucking game
But it don't hit the same if it ain't real then it don't matter
And I was stubborn I resisted any change in you
Wonder if it's my last dance fuck out my head & make a move
Dream big work hard but now I'm not delusional
If Michael Jordan gotta play the game I gotta play it too

Why do I feel like I need a reintroduction?
Nine years in the game
Built something from nothing
Don't talk like I'm struggling
Live for this I'm loving it
Three pillars I'm crushing them
Nothing ever that tough for me