Текст песни Freepression - Mesus

I got a statement to make in the direction of depression
So depression if you wouldn't mind
Stoppin' what you doing in my mind for a second
I have something I need to mention
Ya' see I'm gettin', really tired of your suggestions
Of steppin' off a bridge to my death
Or a, into a intersection of a street at noon
Well you're three a.m. wake up calls pressing on my chest
Since my adolescent stressing my lungs in your hands choking the path that i'm breathing through
See if you think depression means someone is weak, you better think again
Listen friend, livin' with depression is when you keep waking up, wishing you didn't
Then using all your strength within to lift that two thousand pound bed sheet of you
In reality it's paper thin
Another day begins, by looking in the mirror
Or unclear if when, or if those thoughts you hear to, end
It all will ever end
But there's no time for that your running late again
So rinse your face off, then
Put your car in gear and here we go off into the real world where it's time to pretend
Just time to put that plastic smile on again
And pray to god for the strength to pour into your friends
So hopefully they won't see ya, falling apart within because
How could somebody who needs help, possibly be helping them
That's the deception, and it works so well
That the perception is I'm living in Heaven
When the truth is every breath in hurts like hell
So hello my name's Charles Cosseti
And I hope your ready
'Cause I can't do this on my own anymore, so I'm asking for your help with holding something heavy
'Cause I don't wanna live anymore
I don't
And yes I'm a Christian man and understand that maybe I shouldn't swear
But where my mind is at right now I swear I don't care
I just don't
So forgive me if this is r-rated
But all days are scarred and jaded
And I'm so far from saving that im literally saying awe
Referring to the thoughts bombarding my brain man it's like this
I'm in a relationship with self-hatred it's sick
And I wish I could explain the twistedness of my heart
And my soul's screaming live But still being drowned out by one lil whisper in my mind
Quit
Yeah, quit
Quit like your father did
Your done son another rerun I'm your fate too
Boy, I'ma break you, an' take you from your family like I did him
An' that'll make two
But today you, you gonna listen I'm sick of your lies no more
When you say no-one will miss me when I die I'm sure
The pain of living inside this war
Is way less then quitting with my family left crying at the morgue
So the war is on and I am no longer concealing you
And I am no longer healing you
With a mask and vast array of legal drugs the gov's dealing
That I take just to deal with you
Yeah, I'm gonna keep it real with you
An what people do, or say to me is cool
But I can no longer NOT speak on you
So judge all you want but I can't budge I'm stuck
Wheels in my head are spinning in a rut after rut after rut
Until my motor blows up or I run out of gas and all the
Progress I made from the past takes ten steps back fast
Matter of fact I've conditioned my mental condition to the point
That thinking optimistic is the opposite direction
So how about this depression
Just between me and you
After all of the deception that you had me believe was true
And all the rejection I received from you
And all the blessings I overlooked
'Cause all I seen was you
And all questions of my value and doubting my dreams coming true
All the antidepressants until all I eat, sleep, and breath is you
That all I'd ever feel is you
But, nah I ain't feeling you
You're the reason my beliefs are skewed
An' why I listen to misconceptions that all I'll ever be is you
But I'm a child of the king
So I'll be damned if I'll kneel to you
Right now I'm changing everything
This is my stand for a destiny that's new
A destiny that's true
Not the destiny that you say it will be
Truth is there is a way too many people praying for me

Night and day on their knees
For your lies to ever have their way with me
So today it's we not just me we we will all agree to be everything
That we were meant to be everything that we would dream when we were
Free in kindergarten as a kid my heart could clearly see sufficient
Provision for every need in all the
World and all were cured of every disease
Irony is depression keeps setting in its pessimism like a disease
And now it's killing me or at least it used to be
Choosing these chains of slavery
Claiming these mistakes that I've made to define me
When in all actuality they really just refine me
Finally I see the light
Finally I see what's right
Not I, but we, we need to fight to finally feel what freedoms like
'Cause freedoms like a fairy tale
For those who know depression
And there is no question
I know it very well
Even though
You could barely tell for those who don't
Picture being buried in hell
An' you can barely inhale and any air that you inhale
You guard with your life like a letter of mail when you're in jail
Cuz that's where you are except these bars don't have to stay locked
You don't have to do a life sentence
There is a way out and
That way already died for you and before you call me preachy
Please see
I'm not holding the Bible dude
I'm just holding to what I know is true and
You can too please don't see me as the exception
I'm just a messenger that you can be free of depression
All you need is the key and the key that freed me can free all
All you need is belief and you will find freepression