Astray

I put my soul on paper then I'm ripping up these pages
Sorting through these mazes it's amazing
Nightmares of woman reoccurring that I laid with
Images engraved but I find it hard to frame it
Didn't know what came with love so I found it hard to claim it
Blinded by my wounds I was selfish could you blame me
I know you can
I know it's painful
Knew I had to change me
Witnessing my family scrape up change make me angry
And I'm asking for a lot but know that God already saved me
My momma knew my worth the day he made me
Pushing me around she was proud to show the world that I'm her baby
And love like that is really crazy
Cuz I done seen the opposite
Parents giving birth and never want the shit
Searching for some love but can't accomplish it
Darker tints
Digging through the surface see if living really worth it
Searching for the light making light of what you working with
Ayy
And I'm just happy I can work through it
Know that nothing perfect but its pertinent
That imma give the love to my family that is permanent
I feel like love the only thing to really fix this dark ass world
Learned that young when I was crushing on this dope ass girl
And she turned to my wife
Now I'm seeing things different in life
Mass influence in the shit that I write
I pray the wrongs I've experienced get right

Ayy
So when I say this I ain't being polite
(Yea)
But excuse me what you want from your life
(Excuse me what you want from your life)

Ayy
And when I say this I ain't being polite
I'm fuckin' tired of being the hand that they bite
(I'm fuckin' tired of being the hate that they bite)

Ayy
But this is life
Several days opportunities to get shit right
Steady pray for my immunity to keep my life
I've seen losses but this is life

Yea
I've seen losses

I can't take credit for
You succeeding in all those things that you did along the way
Like being in tournaments and
That's you that was all you
All I can do is just say that's my baby and be proud
But you can't take credit for someone's character
You can't take credit for if you gave them
Everything you needed to give them to make the right choices
And they go astray
Because it's not that you did anything wrong
It's that own person's
Character

Yea
And through these losses I ain't lose a thing
I was learning taking heed from what these lessons bring
Now I'm lifting out my voice each time I let it ring
I'm grateful for the better things
Seeing that my Hell is really Heaven when I meditate
Outlooks changed that's a saving grace
Used to be a dog so I know when niggas go astray
Any given day they ain't with me at end of the day
It's still ok
People change, people grow
Other people stay the same
People come, people go
Either way I do my thing
My world is what I make it so I'm turning it to everything
Pledge to God the day she want it, Nellz gone get a wedding ring
To her I credit everything
And we been building everyday
So every fear that I shake off I'm elevating
Mom and Dad I'm sorry for the time I took forsaken
But I swear from this movement moving forward
I ain't leaving from this earth without me mastering this calling
I promise

So when I say this I ain't being polite
(Yea)
But excuse me what you want from your life
(Excuse me what you want from your life)

Ayy
And when I say this I ain't being polite
I'm fuckin' tired of being the hand that they bite
(I'm fuckin' tired of being the hate that they bite)

Ayy
But this is life
Several days opportunities to get shit right
Steady pray for my immunity to keep my life
I've seen losses but this is life

Yea
I've seen losses