The Dowser

Please tell me that it mattered
That it somehow felt more real
My illusions are all shattered
And I don't know what to feel
It's a senseless deal
If all it is
Is sound and fury

I don't understand
Why I care
We have all run out
Of love to spare

Please say it was important
Please justify the gain
It has to have had some meaning
I have to understand this pain
In order to maintain
A sense of self
And of belonging

I don't understand
Why I care
No one has much love
Left to spare

Please tell me that it mattered
That it somehow felt more real