Everything I Wanted

Left myself on the island
Didn't even try to fight it
Now I wake up blue
Pulling out my hair
And I pick on you
Handle me with care
Left my mind in a dark place
I can't correct my mistakes
Now I wake up red
Never speak a word
Staying in my head
It's what I deserve

I can't ignore
All of the signs
I've had this feeling before
And I can't take
Back all the times
I've taken the blame
When it wasn't mine
No it wasn't mine
Need something else
Need something else
Cause what I'm breathing in is toxic
I tell myself
I tell myself
That it's everything I wanted
Everything I wanted
Everything I wanted

Lost myself in this city
Trying to make myself busy
So I threw myself right into the crowd
Cause I needed help
Should've asked around

I can't ignore
All of the signs
I've had this feeling before
And I can't take
Back all the times
I've taken the blame
When it wasn't mine
No it wasn't mine
Need something else
Need something else
Cause what I'm breathing in is toxic
I tell myself
I tell myself
That it's everything I wanted
Everything I wanted
Everything I wanted
I tell myself
I tell myself
I tell myself
I tell myself
I tell myself
I tell myself
That it's everything I wanted