Текст песни So It Seems - P Money

They don't ask to say I'm okay
I just say so it seems
Behind doors tearing up
Consistently sewing seams
This ain't got a chorus G
This one here is one for me
I've had thoughts I can't repeat
This is me at war with me
This is why I can't retreat
Lost my nan last week
Never had a chance to speak
People trying to give me grief
So I ain't had a chance to grieve
Too much relies on me
Inside I'm still learning
But outside's a masterpiece
Even if I part with you
You are still a part of me
Instead of trying to start on me
Why not make a start with me
I know the sayings well
I'm calm with karma G
Temptation don't phase me
I know how the dark can be
Thirty second stroll with me
Have you in your thoughts for weeks
I've had all the battles but
No-one's ever fought for me
I learn from the scars I've got
Nothing was taught to me
So how can you say I'm okay
If you don't talk to me
Oh so it seems
That I hold it all with ease
Doesn't mean it ain't heavy (oooh)
Behind these eyes it ain't (but behind)
What it seems
Oh so it seems
That I hold it all with ease (hold it all with ease)
Doesn't mean it ain't heavy, (HEAVY)
But behind these eyes it ain't (what is seems)
Sitting here thinking 'bout
Things no-one thinks about
Like how am I really doing
You don't know the ins and outs
Life is so different now
You ask me different how
Never got to say goodbye
Really wish I did it now
Hooked on this rollercoaster
When will someone fish me out
Instead of trying to solve problems
We keep pushing things around
I think I understand
Ain't just 'cause I've been around
It's 'cause I've been the one laughing
And I've also been the clown
Happy, yeah so it seems
Everyone is loving me
Lots to keep me company
Money and the company
But the saddest part of this
Is not the people judging me
Or the label bumping me
I tell you what fucks with me
It's because no matter what
We focus on the bad things
Even when it's outweighed by the good
That's what's bugging me
You ain't heard enough of me
'Cause I don't show enough of me
I wish I had more time
I wish there was another me
Oh so it seems
Oh Oh Oh
I hold it all with ease
Behind these eyes are my fears
I hear you calling me
And I'm coming back to you
You said you'd never leave
So I'm coming back to you