Текст и перевод песни QM - They Said

They Said

할아버지가 아프셨을 때 아빤 술에 잔뜩 취해
소주 냄새가 신발장을 타고 안방을 적시네
허물처럼 넥타일 풀어헤치곤 술이 덜 깼는지 도리도리
취하면 어린아이가 돼버리는 걸까
갓 스물 난 알 리 없지

아빠 고생하셨다며 받아 든 옷의 무게
학교 전공서적을 담은 내 책가방의 무겐
비슷한 줄 알았는데 전혀 그렇지가 않다는
사실을 알게 되곤 옷을 든 팔은 바닥에
거의 닿으려 했었지 뭐

취하면 몇 개 국어로 사랑한다 말하는 우리 아빠
그날따라 어디에도 없는 사람처럼 크게 침묵하다
나를 돌아봤는데 눈은 추웠는지 쌍꺼풀을 두껍게 덮었고
그 안은 수년째 가뭄을 달래듯 하얀 폭우가 쏟아져
우리 아빠 운다
아빠가 우는데 난 울면 안 된다는 걸
뭔가 자전거 배우듯이 깨달았네
간신히 버티고 서있는 내 눈앞에 당신이 무너지네
그리고 당신이 했던 말은 평생 담기겠지 내게 깊게

너한텐 할아버지지만 나한텐 아빠
아빠와 난 서있어 같은 공간 헌데 큰 온도 차
너희 할아버지 원래 내 아빠였고
내 아빠이기 전엔 할아버지의 아들이었대
그랬대 한나야

엄마랑 영화 보러 가는 길 나뭇잎 바스락거리는 소리
그 사이 스며드는 찬바람은 12월이 다 왔다는 거지
이른 겨울바람은 손으로 꽉 쥐어도 새어나가는 모래처럼
엄마의 스웨터를 파고들고 겨드랑인 자석처럼 딱 붙어
손을 펴 엄마의 손을 맞잡네
얼마만인지 그대 손을 잡는 게 아마 첫사랑이 부러질 때
울면서 안긴 적 빼곤 없는 거 같은데 그게 벌써
오래 전인데 여태 뭐 했나 싶어 손을 꽉 잡아
그래도 엄마 손잡네
이 말에 멋쩍게 웃으며 이제 맨날 잡을게
엄마 있을 때 잘해 이 말에
겨울이 한 발짝 가깝게
다가온 것 같은 기분은 아마
할머니 때문일 것 같은 느낌은
나만의 착각이 아니었나 봐
사랑해 문자로는 수도 없이 했던 말
찬바람에 오그라든 목구멍에 붙어
더 올라 오질 않네
애꿎은 침만 삼키다가
나는 엄마의 손을 더 꽉 잡아
영원히 놓지 않을 듯이
당신을 절대 놓지 않아

너한텐 할머니지만 나한텐 엄마
엄마와 난 서있어 같은 공간 헌데 큰 온도 차
너희 할머니 원래 내 엄마였고
내 엄마이기 전엔 할머니의 딸이었대
그랬대 한나야

They Said

When My grandfather was sick My father was drunk
The smell of soju soaked the shoe rack and drenched the bedroom
Like a ruin He loosened his tie and swayed drunkenly
I guess when you're drunk you become a child
I was barely twenty so I had no idea

I received the weight of the clothes saying My father suffered
The weightlessness of my school books
I thought they were similar but they're not at all
When I realized The arm holding the clothes
Almost reached the floor

When he's drunk My father says I love you in several languages
That day He was strangely silent like someone who doesn't exist
He looked at me His eyes were cold and his double eyelids were thick
And inside it rained white heavily as if to quench years of drought
My father is crying
My father is crying but I shouldn't cry
I realized it like learning to ride a bike
You're standing right in front of my eyes as I barely stand
And the words you said will be deeply engraved in me for the rest of my life

He's your grandfather but he's my father
My father and I are standing in the same space but the temperature difference is huge
Your grandfather used to be my father
And before he was my father He was your grandfather's son
That's how it is Hannah

On the way to the movies with my mom The sound of leaves rustling
The cold wind seeping in between them It's already December
The early winter wind slips out like sand even when I clench my fists
Burrows into my mother's sweater and clings to my armpit like a magnet
I spread my hand and hold my mother's hand
It's been a while It's probably the first time I've held your hand since my first love ended
I hugged you while crying Except for that I don't think I ever held your hand It's been
So long ago I wonder what I've been doing I hold your hand tightly
But I'm still holding your hand
To these words You smile awkwardly and say I'll hold it all the time now
Do it while your mother is here To these words
Winter feels a step closer
It feels like it's approaching
It's probably because of your grandmother
I guess I'm not the only one who feels this way
I've told you countless times in messages that I love you
Stuck in my throat that was constricted by the cold wind
It won't come up
I keep swallowing the bitter saliva
I hold my mother's hand even tighter
As if I'll never let go
I'll never let go of you

She's your grandmother but she's my mother
My mother and I are standing in the same space but the temperature difference is huge
Your grandmother used to be my mother
And before she was my mother She was your grandmother's daughter
That's how it is Hannah