Текст песни Lonely Nights - R3NDER

I have these lonely nights
Were nothing seems right
It's gets so hard i can't fight
Anymore these demons in my head
Getting drunk before i go to bed
Then i wake up waste more lead
Just wishing i was dead
For what reason
There isn't one
I'm just so sad
Just wish i was still a little lad
In that little class
Yeah

It's like ever since i grew up
I'm just so depressed
It's so hard to get rest
Mom I'm trying my best
I get high to cope with these emotions
Because they cloud my mind
Sometimes I wish I was blind
So I didn't have so see the broken moon

Stay awake so I don't dream
Because that makes all the good
Memories dread when I get them
my head turns into a warzone
I think at this point I rather be alone
With nowhere to roam
Because I can't even pick up my phone
I'm just so scared too that everyone will
Hate me but I don't know if that's the truth
Anymore

I get so personal everytime
I was took of that track
I don't know what to do anymore
So I just get up up in the booth
Rap this like I don't know what else to do
Because i say I'm gonna quit
But gimmie 2 months and I end up back on it

I'm so obsessed with dropping music
To make everything right
Because deep down I say I'm gonna quit
But I know I won't ever do it
Because I love this genre too much
And I could never quit music
That's just something I don't know
Why the haters find me quitting amusing
But I will never quit I don't care anymore