Текст песни Suicidal Thoughts - R3NDER

These suicidal thoughts want me dead, when i think of this dread
It hurts so much, puts so much pressure on my head

Yeah i wanna die, but i don't, these thoughts are making believe that's the only outcome
When i drown in these memories till i've finally had enough
I cut but i say i'm okay, cause i don't know what else to say
It's like i'm trapped in a hell, that i can't escape
No matter how hard i try, it just makes me wanna suicide
So i see the doctor and he knows something isn't right
All my friends see i'm acting differently, im not laughing anymore
Cause i'm so sore inside
Acting like i'm gonna get through it but these thoughts are so explicit
Now i miss my past and it's hard to carry on, but i've tried so hard to escape
Now these thoughts are just fucked up in my mind and i don't know what to do tonight

These suicidal thoughts want me dead, when i think of this dread
It hurts so much, puts so much pressure on my head
Till i finally say, now i wanna be dead