Lookin' Back

Looking back at my life, I was supposed to make a name for myself
You couldn't begin to think about the pain that I felt
Stranger to wealth, I ain't try to change the game for my health
Regret hanging around them snakes who claim that they helped
Blaming myself, got signed and then stayed on the shelf
I could've made it happen, now I'm ashamed of myself
Snake bitches with eyes on my papers
Fell victim to one, she ended up fucking some guy from the Lakers
Left my wife of six years for that bitch there
Worst mistake that I ever made, let me switch gears

I used to switch pairs faster than I switched gear
Twenty-six years later and now the shit's clear
Sitting in clubs, addicted to drugs, tricking on dubs
Only spitting for money, forgetting the love
So many years I been gripping this grudge
It's too late, I should've put my career over glistening studs
Suicidal thoughts dripping in blood, gripping the snub
How ironic, I go out kissing a slug

I let some crab-ass niggas persuade me, bitches who played me
Go 'head, duffel bag, you should whip the Mercedes
All my niggas betrayed me, record labels enslaved me
Now I'm a middle-aged man and you thinking I'm crazy
Nine-to-fiveing it, just surviving it
There's no pride in it, I can't strive in it
This the bed I've made, I gotta lie in it
And this the grave I've dug and I'ma die in it