Текст песни Stupid Wishes - Rasti

You pulse inside of me
I run to my diary
These episodes so tiring
I assume everybody would lie to me
I don't even know what I try to be
I don't ever rem
Just tired blinks
You got to have patience
I'll do what I want
It's a free nation
I cry to my playlist
And when I do
Then the play sticks
I hate this but
It's all that I got
I'm too scared to ever try pot
So I sit in the dark
With my spirits and plot
Are you hearing these jots
Dots I say
Dot dot dot
You're only hearing the beat that I rap to
Tell me to quit but I have to
I used to quote what hopeness is
But now I cope with hopelessness
And now I vote for brokenness
I am very motionless
I wish I was emotionless

I overthink almost everything
Like everybody is testing me
Terrified of them rejecting me
So I change till there's nothing left of me
I tell myself that I'm good
Then blow up
Like I think that I should
I'm empty
Got no entities
To make enemies
Of what's meant to be
Wishing I was somebody different
To get it
I need a minute
Just to calm
Lip balm
So strong
My wrongs
All along the buzz enough
To make me look tough
This pain's my joy
But time's up
I get so frustrated
And I hate it
Maybe hormones
But that's basic
I truly have no excuse
Making this but what's the use
You'll hear it once
Then you'll leave
I guess I wish all of you fiends
I say the numbers they don't even matter
Joy or peace
I take the latter
Cloud my head with my thoughts
Then run like
Baby please help me to stop
I know that it's unfair to her
And no other person compares to her
Taking care of my junk
Always there for me
Seems like she's the only one I care to see
Seems like she's the only one to care for me
I wish I was someone I knew
I wish I had access to truth
Making this is all I ever do
But it helps me to see through
And it helps me to find you