A WISH IN GRAYSCALE...

Sometimes im not sure if things are gettin any better
Thoughts inside my head, it's like a storms that I can't weather
I'm just, tryna keep you closer than a tether
I keep, losin myself, I'm fallin in that nether
Tryna ask a genie for a wish, I need some peace
Tryna ask a genie for a wish
Tryna ask a genie for a wish, I need release
Tryna ask a genie for a wish

I'm too geeked up, faded, drowning my sorrows like fish
Gelato Cake I'm facin, I just took a hit
No I cant be complacent, scratch my goals off list
Come up feelin latent, tryna find my bliss
Yea, losing my sense of time tryna walk thru this hell
Yea, the blind cant lead the blind, gotta break out my shell
Yea, no I cant hold your hand, but I can wish you well
I'm lookin for signs, I need something else
So many colors to my soul and now you've seen em all
And I'm something like Icarus, got too up, and now you see the fall
She could see my insecurities and now I gotta withdraw
Too damn scared to face any of my flaws
She don't understand me, I must be her plan B
Am I just some eye candy to you?
My heart burn so pyromantic, mind move way too frantic
My soul search tryna bring me the truth, for you

I just made a wish and then lost it, oh
It's a grayscale colored life if I'm honest, oh
Had to get away, I smoke gas till I'm caustic, oh
Had to get away like I went somewhere tropic, oh

Sometimes im not sure if things are gettin any better
Thoughts inside my head, it's like a storms that I can't weather
I'm just, tryna keep you closer than a tether
I keep, losin myself, I'm fallin in that nether
Tryna ask a genie for a wish, I need some peace
Tryna ask a genie for a wish (Will you grant my fuckin wish today?)
Tryna ask a genie for a wish, I need release
Tryna ask a genie for a wish (Will you grant my fuckin wish today, yea)

(I done made my wish and then lost it, oh)
(Doesn't matter what it motherfuckin costed, oh)
(I do better on my own if I'm-)