Текст песни Never Conflicted - Saint T

I've been drinking
Thinking about a life that I could've had
That I should've had
I've been sinking
Can't breathe underwater, do I like that?
Or has my mind cracked?

I made decisions
Now I'm all out of luck
Chasing fate didn't really ever work
The past and the present all blend into one
And it's too late to escape
Cuz this cage got me stuck
But I don't wanna leave
Or do I wanna go?
There's a difference between
That I guess I'll never know
Gotta stick to my word
Or results won't show
But I haven't felt happy since many years ago
I see the world that you live in
I'm better off without it and I know I wouldn't fit in
I'm taking it for granted
This blessing I've been given
Did I grow up too fast? Or am I tripping?

I've been drinking
Thinking about a life that I could've had
That I should've had
I've been sinking
Can't breathe underwater, do I like that?
Or has my mind cracked?
Never conflicted
Are the words that are inked on my body
But I can't copy
I don't wanna fix it
Imma make myself drown, I'm sorry
I'm not sorry

I got it tatted on my arm to remind me
But I can't seem to follow these signs, please
I can't do it on my own, come and find me
Even though, this won't matter when I'm ninety
Push it, push it to the back again
Someone else can deal with it, I don't wanna depend
On other people but I can't do this, my friend
Wait a sec, I think I wanna try it again

I've been drinking
Thinking about a life that I could've had
That I should've had
I've been sinking
Can't breathe underwater, do I like that?
Or has my mind cracked?
Never conflicted
Are the words that are inked on my body
But I can't copy
I don't wanna fix it
Imma make myself drown, I'm sorry
I'm not sorry