Текст песни lifeless. - Sam Brad

My life is a haunting which is haunted by the looks of you
My old man ran away because he's scared to really face the truth
Tired is an understatement I'm the outcast of the group
I'm Feeling isolated overthinking things to introduce
Anxiety, I'll do it quietly
I wanna stand out but I'll be a mistake to society
Yeah, Don't you understand that sometimes I need the privacy
Sincerely misery, is an intro to my diary
Grab the guitar & sing like Shiloh Dynasty
I know that I'm a pain but I don't get it, entirely
Depression doesn't choose but I'm the one why did u hire me?
But don't worry I'm okay. But I'm not. The irony
Boys suffer too was strong but the message didn't get through
Picking up the pieces to erase the past. Do something new
The paranoia starts, drop kicks me yeah back to June
Am I the only one? If I'm not please let me speak to you

Why do I deserve this
Rotting with own sins
Yeah it should be over
Yeah it should be over
Why do I deserve this (Why do I deserve this)
Rotting with own sins (Rotting with my own sins)
Yeah it should be over (It should be over)
Yeah it should be over (It should be over)

All of my surroundings are numb by loneliness
I've had to many thrills & I don't need any new phobias
Life is like a puzzle you pick up the wrong pieces & put them down & find the right one to start dreaming
There must be something wrong with me why are people leaving
I guess you really can't handle the way that I am feeling
I know I'm such a pain I know It's hard to get me speaking
You know I have depression but I think you hate believing
Every past relationship I capture a moment & then I like to hold it for a while yeah & then I wanna keep it
I wanna thank all my exes because they kept me happy for a while even if it did end badly with the screaming
I know it's hard for you to see what I am really seeing
I can't explain myself when I'm trapped & don't know the meaning
Somebody who relates would be nice, a person to speak with
Instead of someone saying it's fine & they keep agreeing
I wanna live my life
I wanna live it right
I want the reassurance
Yeah, with no sacrifice
I need the reassurance
Yeah, without the lies
Give me reassurance
Then I'll be fine
I can't find my worth
All I do is work
Yeah, 4 albums in a year
But you still never learn
Yeah, if I disappear
It's not the wrong turn
But if you feel guilty
You deserve to burn

Why do I deserve this
Rotting with own sins
Yeah it should be over
Yeah it should be over
Why do I deserve this (Why do I deserve this)
Rotting with own sins (Rotting with my own sins)
Yeah it should be over (It should be over)
Yeah it should be over (It should be over)

I'm not even half way there yet
& I could list a dozen of my regrets
I know there's a lot more but they're in my head
Not coming out any time soon yeah they're a threat
From now on I'll definitely be prepared
Before someone breaks down my walls through my defence
Why do I start wars that I don't declare
Being in love & being young is a thing that I don't recommend
I know it's me I know it's not fair
I know you pushed me away but I still wish you the best
It's time for my life to run a mile yeah to take a step
Or take a step back when I'm stressed I really need a rest
Possessed by aggression I can't help. Ur not impressed
Back in love scars 1 I said I missed you that was all pretend
Attacking me from all directions yeah I still can't see the end
I'm scarred by love but that is something that I've definitely addressed
I'm scarred take out one of the R's yeah what does that spell?
Wishing for success throw me down down in the wishing well
No way I'm letting you rot again. You're not going back in that cell
I know we don't respect each other but I'll go. Say my farewells

Why do I deserve this
Rotting with own sins
Yeah it should be over
Yeah it should be over
Why do I deserve this (Why do I deserve this)
Rotting with own sins (Rotting with my own sins)
Yeah it should be over (It should be over)
Yeah it should be over (It should be over)

There's still a lot more to explain
Imma get up & not sit in pain
I sit in my car listening to the rain
As time goes by I start to waste away
There's still a lot more to explain
Imma get up & not sit in pain
I sit in my car listening to the rain
As time goes by I start to waste away