Текст песни It's Been Awhile - Living in Fiction , Scarlet City

It's been awhile since I could
Hold my head up high
It's been awhile since I first saw you
It's been awhile since I could stand
On my own two feet again
It's been awhile since I could call you

And everything I can remember
Is fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
Have stretched myself beyond my means

It's been awhile since I could say
That I wasn't addicted and
It's been awhile since I could say
I love myself as well as
It's been awhile since I've gone
And fucked things up just like I always do
It's been awhile but all that shit
Seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can remember
Is fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
Have gone and fucked things up again, yeah

Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day

It's been awhile since I could
Look at myself stray
It's been awhile since I said I'm sorry
It's been awhile since I've seen the way
That candles light your face
It's been awhile but I can still remember
Just the way you taste

And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me, yeah

It's been awhile since I could
Hold my head up high
It's been awhile since I said I'm sorry