Da Letter

Breakin up I done lost my mind forgot everything about me
I'm bout to kill myself and no one can stop me
Lovin over a nigga die I know I can't have
So I write up in a paper in this letter I draft it goes:

Dear nigga, I'm crazy over you
I love you so much what I hope to do
All da cash, clothes, and even prada shoes
Kinda said to myself what a girl got to lose

For the pride deep inside deep inside I wanna cry
Cause I never felt like this like any other guy
And for you to declare and I just don't know why
Is it I'm a bad girl or is it the eye

I can't sleep at night I can't rap at shows
Can't do a goddamn thing it's only you that I know
I yearn you left I'm filled with disgust
I wanna take a AK and to a end of a bus

I got it bad like a spider bite you know this ain't right
It's you nigga you got me goin through this thang
This shit is buggin me switch side is what I need
I'm crankin up bad now you lookin straight like me

I done cut my dreads off I'm wearin crazy clothes
So anybody understand HELL NO!
I'm a sissy in my heart it's filled with grief
Shit nigga you got me weak in the knees
He got me weak, he got me weak, he got me weak in the knees
He got me weak, he got me weak, he got me weak in the knees
He got me weak he got me, he got me weak in the knees
He got me weak in the knees, he got me killing me please

He got me weak he got me, he got me weak in the knees
He got me weak he got me, he got me weak in the knees
He got me weak in the knees, he got me weak in the knees
He got me weak in the knees, he got me killing me please
Page two of my letter it ain't gettin no better
I got the pills sittin on the bedroom dresser
I'm a overdose nigga yea you did this to me
Cause you didn't take the time to even talk to me

You don't know how I feel you don't know my pain
All I watned was you know I'm going insane
Playing internet games on ya myspace page
People call me a stalker or this day in this age

I ask myself Sissy Nobby is you really happy
Cause you really found a nigga that can make you happy
As the tears roll down it splattered now it's on my paper
As I finally get ready just to meet my maker

No more hate no more lies no more deceit
I'm a finally be in east I'm a finally be free
Cause you niggas are low down ya'll want a hand me out
And never want to know what Sissy Nobby about

Bitch I do want help but what about my help
Bitch I do want a name but what about my name
Bitch I do want fame but what about my fame
As I swallow five pills to take me out this game

Got five pills to go then I'm on that road
Don't want no Tylenol PM's to take control
And if you came to shit this not a game or a joke
And to all my fans I want to let ya'll know

I'm the best of being depressed I'm the worst of being hurt
Make sure I'm lookin fly when I'm in that hearse
Dope nigga wants me even if I use money
I swallowed both pills now I'm feelin drowsy

I'm feelin lowsy I'm ready to go
I'm makin up my mind make pay take over my shows
I hate niggas I hate love
I hate everything that I'm thinkin of

All I wanted was a nigga that I knew I could'ntget
Now I'm feelin like a fool cause the ecstacy is thick
Love hurts love's bad now let em lay down
And let these pills take ova my head