Goodbye

I remember it like it just happened
I could've sworn it was a dream
But in reality it hit me like a nightmare
Or at least that's how it seemed
I just got a grip on our relationship
We was ironing things out, started picking up steam
And when we didn't need it is when it all got heated
And we both said some things that we probably didn't mean
Then God intervened, guess more was at stake
Thought we left nothing over, He put more on the plate
She came home from the doctor with news I've been wanting
Said family was incoming, she pregnant, twins coming
But that's gotta be a lie
She sighed, couldn't stop the tears coming from her eyes
That birth control she on, for them it's suicide
As long as it's still inside, two of them wouldn't survive
Hard turn from memorable to cynical
Picturing clothes for what would've been identical
Similar outfits and similar names
My deceased kids' ultrasound in a frame
So I'm deprived of my chance to be a better dad
Staring at my twins that I never had
I shed a tear looking up in the sky
Even though y'all just got here, goodbye

Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
But it's not the end of the chapter
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
I'll see you again in the afterlife

My biological sperm donor didn't wanna be a daddy
So we hopped in his Caddy and turned corners on us
Turned on us out of clear blue
His last memory of his son is seeing me through his rearview
I still love him, yo, but I love his brother more
My uncle showed me love no one could know
Young and poor with a tougher road to suffer
Hunger was nothing but unc' would hold us down
Help moms lift the motherload, I got grown and
I used to wonder what it would be like to speak to pops as a grown man
He provided that feeling, told me to take my career into my own hands
He was there when I had no fans
My cell phone rings and after I answer
A voice says, "Your uncle's been diagnosed with cancer"
Worst news in my life, him in chemo
Going twelve rounds with a disease and they both losing a fight
I'm rushing up to Cedars-Sinai
Praying for a miracle, I don't wanna see my idol die
Before he did, the look in his eyes
Said, "Even though you just got here, goodbye"

Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
But it's not the end of the chapter
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
I'll see you again in the afterlife

I'll see you again in the afterlife
Someday in Heaven we will reunite
The flesh disappears but the soul survives
'Til next time, my friend, farewell, goodbye

I walk in your daughter house knowing that you gone
But still looking out the corner of my eye hoping you on the couch
That call felt like I was beef that got shot up
Ironic, I was on tour with Tech N9ne and Slaughterhouse
D tried to talk to me, Crystal rubbed my back as they was pouring out
I caught the next thing soaring out
Now I'm in the air in the Midwest somewhere
They said the turbulence was severe
I don't know what they talking 'bout
I ain't feel a bump, body numb, mind drifting
I'm sniffing, asthma acting up, I'm whistling
I'm wishing my mother face looked so much different
I'm kissing my son, my aunt pacing in the kitchen
My vision blurry, still I saw your face clear
What a loss, this time I did more than waste beer
Michelle strong, she held on, we got all the way there
Then we walked in and she fell on the floor, this ain't fair
You was the voice when I considered them thoughts that ain't clear
Hey granny, I was fifth row at the Grammys
An award they ain't hand me, but I sat behind Will and
Right in front of Wayne and got seen by the family
I miss them early morning convos, believe me
Regis on the TV and the best baked ziti
But you added all white affair
Grandpa's all fly, even though you been got there
Goodbye

Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
But it's not the end of the chapter
Goodbye, goodbye, so long, farewell
I'll see you again in the afterlife