Текст песни Straitjacket - Stretch

There's a blackness that eats inside me
And with each attack it redefines me
A sadness of which realiziing
The cause can be seen but the cure be blinding
With each day I'm dying 'cause of a feelin i'm hiding
That defines me, I cant seem to fight me
Cause I am what they call anxiety
I am what they call depression
I'm made up of paranoia and second guessin
I have a brain that don't know what rest is
And a heart that only sees negative intentions
Of the ones around me, they can fake me out but I know they look down on me
This loneliness drowns me, no one hears the sounds though I'm screaming loudly

I can't escape the fact I'm always wondering why
I just evade what I'm feeling with another lie
I'm drowning in doubt, my stomach's tongue tied
Every day's an ache living with these bitter butterflies

Running round in circles all I see are faces
I can feel the judgement I can feel the hatred

Tell me that it gets better knowing that it doesn't
Tell me to be happy don't you know that you are loved but
I guess you never felt Zoloft's numbness
I guess I'd rather feel hopeless than feel nothin
I wanna feel something
Other than sadness, fear, and judgment
That don't stem from being dumped and
Don't stem from losing my cousin
It doesn't stem from something
No reason or rhyme, just mental obstruction
But I deceive and I just pretend to function
Can't you see the cries of a clown pullin stunts when
The feeling arrives in my mind and haunts it
That's why I distract myself and stay busy
That's why the cynical thoughts stick with me
I see neediness and failure in me
But I mask that shit, cause I don't need pity

I can't escape the fact I'm always wondering why
I just evade what I'm feeling with another lie
I'm drowning in doubt, my stomach's tongue tied
Every day's an ache living with these bitter butterflies

Running round in circles all I see are faces
I can feel the judgement I can feel the hatred
All my insecurities exposed like I am naked
No matter what I do, all I feel is anxious

Running round in circles all I see are faces
In a room full of friends I still feel isolated

Running round in circles all I see are faces
I can feel the judgement I can feel the hatred
All my insecurities exposed like I am naked
No matter what I do, all I feel is anxious