Notes From A War

Notes from a war
Remembered from afar
The fire and the smoke
The battle and the scars
The promise that I broke
The promise that I stole
The reason that I hope
The why I never know
Riddle me once
Do I want to go on
Vison conjoined
In the shadow beyond
What can I say
Of the world I knew
If it isn't for me
Then it isn't for you
What is this part of me
What is this strange disease
This thing that's killing me
That I can't touch
That I can't see
It's in the manifold
It's in the path I chose
And in the bitter end
It's all that I will ever know
Features revolve
And the evidence fades
Might as well see
If I can degrade
Nothin' I've known
Could ever have shown
Me what to expect
Or how to evade
Non-trivial
Perfectly civil
For all that I know
This thing
Could be killin' you
No reason, nothin' defined
Nothin' to lose
And nothin' to find
Gotta admit
I'm a little afraid
A little uncertain
Of how to engage
A little control
Goes an awful long way
A little perspective
A little too late
But for myself
If I could explain
Somehow had told you
The measure of pain
Something to fade
And something to see
Dreamer inside
And the sleeper is me
What is this part of me
What is this strange disease
This thing that's killing me
That I can't touch
That I can't see
It's in the manifold
It's in the path I chose
And in the bitter end
It's all that I will ever know