Текст песни I Love You - TRVIS

I love you
That's what I'm saying to myself and then I come to
My senses ask myself if I really meant it
When I know that I didn't and it's hard to vent this
They're ripping me apart
And the consequences I never really thought
This is how I'd end this I'm speaking from the heart
Blood leaking from my pen this stress is relentless
Let me take a second to express this
For the things that I thought I cemented
Just to watch them fall apart crumble in my palms
Disintegrate and gone like they weren't anything at all
I struggle when I'm calm
Like I couldn't be bothered I'll probably shrug it off
That's the moment when I hit the wall placing any fault
On anybody but myself knowing that it's false

I said
I'd give you the world gave you hell instead
Gave a second chance then I held my breath
Until I suffocated then I'm left for dead like
This head never slows down
I'm hanging by a thread
Laying in my bed
Thinking about the things that I never should have said
One negative thought then I listen to it spread
I never meant to desert you
I'm sorry that I hurt you and never thought you heard this
I hope you find someone that deserves you
As much as I deserve this
I'm worthless
Why do I try so hard to be perfect
When I know that's a goal that I can't reach
And I sacrifice everything knowing it ain't worth it
Still finding purpose
The words that I blurt discourage any burdens
That I put to rest or I thought that I did
Till they crawl to the surface hurt I'm immersed in
I'm laying in the dirt muddy shirt
That's a fact and the worst is
That I think I'm sure
With the thought I belong here
Cursed and disturbed with urge to disperse any pain on a person
Curtains are closing
But does it make a difference when they never really opened
I wonder when the show ends
Exposing my demons they poking they skulls
Through the holes in my clothes when I chose to
Give them the spotlight
Soaked in my hopelessness
I'm choking on my coping skills
I know that I'm growing but I'm broken still
I just want someone that would get this
Someone that would listen
Someone that doesn't see
Me for my faults or change their perspective
When I make decisions that I see fits best
For my objectives in life but I guess that I always cave
Cause I crave that acceptance
So I go against me and blame myself
Then I change myself
Just to get their affection

I'll never be enough
Got addicted to drugs trying to find love
Them pills don't love you it's something that you run to
Just so you're numb to the poison in your lungs
Pain in your blood
Fits like a glove
That's why it feels right
Push comes to shove
Now you're in a fight
Slip of the tongue
Took one too many now you're looking above
I was lucky that I woke up
Puked up enough skin blue and my tubes shut
Is what could of been and the truth is I knew what
I was doing but I didn't have a care for the world or myself
So I choose who'd of knew they could lose us
So quickly you ain't done pick your shoes up and
Go out there and make a name for yourself
End this pain put your hurt into music

Never let somebody else tell you how you should live your life
Write the story that you want and
Never try to change your mind
It's fine
Love that person in the mirror and
Learn from yourself go and take that advice
We all gotta climb 'cause we all gotta shine
And you only live once so don't waste no
Time