Everything I Once Loved

What it could've been
Is different on who you ask
People giving testimonies
While I'm just sad
Cuz she never called back
She didn't give me time
She just left
Without saying goodbye
But I'm used to it
It just how the dice roll
I can't fold
Got all in
Cuz of what I been doing
Y'all talking nonsense
Stop that shit
Been here only a little bit
But I still feel mad old
I guess it's cuz I got
The cold shoulder
But that's so old

See I'm used to it
But it still hurts
It's like every time
It feels brand new
But so strange at the same time
Everything I once loved
Is no more fun
All the people I loved
Just ain't hitting me up
They leaving me on read
Is it something that I said
Or something that I did
I know I'm a sinner
But I always repent

Blame is on me
Fingers pointing from all angles
Angels coming down
Bout to bring me to god
Give me 5 more minutes
I got so much to say
But so little time
To say what's been on my mind
I may forgive
But I'll never forget
What you put me through
All the shit you did
Now nothing makes sense
Like reading sentences
Out my alphabet soup
I wish it went different
I wish we could've ended as friends
I wish we didn't have to hate
I wish we could meet again
See I wish so much shit
But they never become real
Wanting to feel loved
By everyone
Shit warming me up
Like the sun
But when the moon rises
That's when I get to writing
That's when I start
Fighting my demons
Shit got me screaming
Cuz of what I been feeling
But maybe it's time
That I finally start healing
Gotta lock me away
Because of all the hearts I been stealing
Everything comes full circle
So that's why every word is so hurtful