probably me

She broke my heart, I broke her heart
We're both were half, I know my part now
Can't pass the blame, can't blame the past
It's hard to change, too proud to ask how?

Fuck all that, I'm done with that
Try run from that shit, it comes right back, now
I learned some things, I burned some things
'Cause I'm really low, but I'll work some things out
And I've seen, it's probably me

I done some good (good), I done some bad (bad)
Can't take it back (back), can't blame my background
This ain't my mom, this ain't my dad (nope)
That's all an act (yeah), the way I act out

That's all on me, this falls on me
This trauma can't keep on haunting me now
They tried their best, I cried my best
I lied my best, it's time to let it out
Demons run, it's probably me

Yeah, I'll admit, it was me, I'm a mess, I come clean, I confess
If I am what I eat, then I'm a ass, I guess, bon appétit, pull up a seat
Let's feast on the truth, break our peace off the cake
Make some peace with the past, pass the peas to my seeds
Let's toast to accountability, history do not re-
History will not repeat, trauma runs deep
That shit is weak, tryna blame it on that shit
Just admit I was weak, couldn't play, had to cheat

Creeping round like a creep, tryna feed my little ego
While she feeds little me, but no point tryna weep
Over breast milk I spill, I'm guilt free
My bills been paid for mistakes I've made
I grieved all the girls that I ghosted
I hosted these demons; it's time to evict them
That victim ain't me, fuck a quick fixin', fuck a 616
I'm tryna rewrite my whole belief system, switch teams

Fuck my dopamine addiction, the independency
Fuck my phobia of loneliness, my fear of therapy
Tryna let the spirits free, breathe, let them leave
Got my wits about me and my friends around me, all I need
This is me, how I am now, proud of every piece
Peace myself back together, resold my gene seams
Tuck my seeds in a bed, tuck their hair behind the air
While they sleep, the cycle ends here, this my new philosophy

It's probably me
I'm proud of myself, this is me
And I'm proud of myself
And I'm proud of myself
And I'm proud of myself
Said I'm proud of myself
That was probably me
I did that