Total Recall

*cello playing*
Wrote you a song to win your heart over
But I'll probably never use it
Right as I worked up the courage to show you
You said something about not liking music
Penned you a letter instead that spelled out
Everything that you mean to me
Thanked me for the thought and not too long after
You ghosted me for a couple weeks
Done going out to the bars
Just to see whether you're there
Time to match your energy
And just not fucking care

Was scared I'd hurt your feelings if I dropped this music then
Remembered you never took mine into consideration
Was scared I'd miss you but then I told myself to stand up
When I got some perspective on the whole situation
Call your parents up once you listen to this
You'll be sure to trash my name
Cause if they had any idea what you put me through
They would never look at you the same
You'll decide where to drive this sinking ship
And commit to it full-throttle
While I sit here and wait, hoping I'm chosen
In your nightly game of spin the bottle
Your friends like to play telephone instead
And repeat to me what you say about us
But I can only take so much of the fall
That comes after every rush
The writing was always on the wall
In your voicemail I'd get whenever I called
Done spending nights sitting in such misery
Deciphering motives like a Nancy Drew mystery
Wavy, raven hair and emerald eyes
Can't help but see versions of me in your new guys

We didn't think we'd end up here
Not something that we could've planned
But right now I'm still hurting badly
And I'm hoping that you understand
You didn't think I heard you say that you love me
Before I drove away
Would've said I felt the same but then
You screwed me over and avoided blame
We don't talk that much anymore
But there's some reasons why
I'll go through it all one last time
Before I say goodbye