By Myself

What do I do to ignore them behind me
Do I follow my instincts blindly
Do I hide my pride from those bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening
Do I sit here and try to stand it
Do I try to catch them red handed
Do I trust someone and get fooled by phoniness
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I made the right moves but I lost within
I put on my daily facade but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (myself)
Eyes wide (let my mind unwind)
I can't rely on myself (myself)
Eyes wide (let my mind unwind)
I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
If I turn my back I'm defenceless
And to go on blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go
Then they'll take from me till everything is gone
If I let them guard I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the question like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
By myself (myself)
Eyes wide (let my mind unwind)
I can't rely on myself (myself)
Eyes wide (let my mind unwind)
I can't rely on myself
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
How do you think I've lost so much
I'm so afraid I'm out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to
Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do or how hard I try
I can't seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside
Don't you know
I can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do or how hard I try
I can't seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in
I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking