Holy Havoc

I've learned the world
It never moves in a straight line
Like my midnight insides
Wreaking holy havoc on the west side
I hide dry
In bitter lights under my riptide eyes
I'm afraid of my infinite little mind

I love you like a sailor loves the sea

With longing and terror and envy
But I want too much
And I think I'll be okay
If I just fill myself up
'Cause I don't know another way

How does your heart have so many doors?
And why do I find it so hard to be careful?
But don't hold it against me
I'm still learning how to be safe
So don't hold it against me
I'm not ready to be rearranged

Don't hold it against me
Don't hold it against me
Our crowded futures will be filled with acid rainbows
And maybe love will be the only way to make it feel like home