Текст песни Hollow Knight - Zach Boucher

I'm used to beginnings but not used to keeping it bottled
This is the result of me doing it now that I'm hollow
Why is it so hard to just be you instead of follow
There's a void in my heart a part of it is turning colossal
Every thought I have is awful
Like "would I be better dead?"
Gotta get out of my head
Smiling but always pretend
Always got a fucking reason for me to regret what I said
But I'm still counting my blessings
I wish I could be there
Found my light within essence
In the city of tears
And I wanna tell you about how much has changed
But it's different, know that its difficult being the same
Think I'm in clinical pain
See I would open my veins
If we could just try to be sane
Or you could just do me a favor and just get the fuck out my brain
Don't come in again
So I'm flipping a page
Show them that I'm doing better
It's the end of the rain
Thought I saw it last forever
Say I never put in effort
Always building up the pressure
That was never my endeavor
Then she left because I let her
Only leaving me a letter
Bleeding, opened up and severed
I know that you deserve better
And I believe I'm the problem
Gotta fucking make hell just for me to go solve it
And I see when you text just never know what to respond with
It doesn't get easy the more that we go
See I'm just lost and out of my options
Stuck in a box and should be calling it a coffin
I think I'm just sick and I've lost it
And after all this I'm exhausted
Every thought is in a mosh pit
The way you made me feel often
Has a future that follows
Even if it ain't you
I know it deep down that I won't be hollow