Unwanted

I can't help but feel unwanted when every word
You say makes me sick in my body and emotions
To the point of draining every ounce of life from my eyes
I bare my teeth as your ideas butcher my sanity and my self worth
Until I can't recognize the difference
Between depression and happiness
Fuck my life and fuck my worth, I know I'm nothing but dirt
Help me wind my noose and hang me from death's open door
I will hang there and let my humanity drip from me like blood
Until my body and soul is long forgotten

I'm completely helpless while you turn the keys on the
Locks that keep this anxiety inside my senses broken mind
I can't feel love because of everything you said to me
I hate myself because of everything you made me see
I've always wondered if we both could eat the same bread
I'm ready to kill myself because I've always felt unwanted and unloved