ある日のひまわり - aiko перевод на английский

ある日のひまわり

ねぇ あのひまわり畑も下を向いてる
季節がゆくよ

何度も何度も書き直しては塗り潰して
あたしは本当の事を何一つ言えなくて
明日にしよう次にまわそう
ただ時間が無いと言い訳にも
黒と白の嘘を重ねて

ねぇ あのひまわり畑も下を向いてる
目も合わせないあたしに
あなたは笑わなくなったね

あなたにあたしの何もかも
透けてしまったらと
思った途端恥ずかしくて
怖くなったんだ

誇れるもの見失ったら
晴れたり曇ったりする事も
必要ないと言われた気がした

あなたはいつも笑顔が咲いた努力家
ひきかえ簡単な事が出来なくなった今のあたし

ねぇ あのひまわり畑も下を向いてる
目も合わせないあたしに
あなたは笑わなくなったね
もう決してあなたと同じ気持ちで
泣けない事も知ってる
だけどだけど
好きだったよ

One Day's Sunflower

Hey, even that sunflower field is facing down,
the season is passing by.

Rewriting and erasing over and over again,
I can't say a single truthful thing.
I'll do it tomorrow, I'll put it off until next time,
but even saying I don't have time is just an excuse.
Piling up black and white lies.

Hey, even that sunflower field is facing down,
at me, who won't meet your eyes.
You've stopped smiling, haven't you?

If everything about me
became transparent to you,
the moment I thought of that, I became embarrassed
and afraid.

When I lost sight of what I could be proud of,
I felt like you said I didn't even need
sunny days or cloudy days anymore.

You're always a hard worker with a blooming smile,
while I, now, can't even do the simplest things.

Hey, even that sunflower field is facing down,
at me, who won't meet your eyes.
You've stopped smiling, haven't you?
I know I can never again cry
with the same feelings as you.
But, but
I loved you.