Текст песни friend a - sorrow

I got some words to speak
And sometimes it hurts to speak
My condition's worsening
Can't see the vision, having blurry dreams
Surprised my demons haven't murdered me
I've been working hard, but they don't really see it
You need a hero, well I try to be it
I was feeling so good, but then I got defeated
Self-abuse and mistreatment, going to the deep end
Don't know what I should believe in

Currently, it's 3 am; I'm alone
Got some music playing
Typing all these words on my phone
In the house, but it don't ever feel like I'm home
Finding answers to the question that will never be known
I just want to be the one that I need
I got a girl, and in reality, she's something to me
Tried to speak, to where she started getting red face
Told me she didn't want me, now I'm feeling like a friend a